confrontation

I've had a week (or so) to stew over the boss situation. The last couple of entries I created, although crudely written, document some of what I was feeling and thinking in the passion of the moment. Later on, as expected, I came up with some new "thinks" that are useful.

Driving to the airport (IAH) on Thanksgiving day gave me the opportunity to think. I felt that I needed to do something. After all, the work environment has this pernicious problem because of the boss that someone needs to say something to someone. And for the last few months, I thought that I should talk to Wayne about the environment that's been created because of Ken: resentment for his micromanagement and anger at some of the administrative/bossy decisions he has made.

I feel that I'm the right one to bring this up because I feel like I've got nothing to lose. I don't think that anything I say is going to jeopardize my employment here - I know what it takes to get someone fired. I also am confident that folks around here want me to continue to be happy... They feel dependant on me for computer-related things and probably figure that being on my "bad side" would be quite detrimental to their work-life.

I can see how I'd be less inclined to go out of my way to help someone here at whom I was pissed off [or should that be, "off at whom I was pissed?"].

So, I thought about what it would be like to bring this stuff up with Wayne. I could envision him asking me if I'd brought this up with Ken. If my answer was, "no," I feel that he'd want me to go to him, first. Wayne likes to avoid personnel confrontations - and he'd be well within his right to redirect me. After all, I don't think I could really convince anyone that I felt that my job would be in jeopardy if I went to Ken, directly. So, this pretty much leaves a direct confrontation as the means to air this shit. I also am inspired by thinking about how Rob would deal with this, since he's a lot more confrontative (?) than I am. Of course, he'd go directly to Ken and growl at him...

So, I'm preparing myself. Trying to get my thoughts distilled down to the nuggets of truth here. I spend some time envisioning the scenario with me coming into the office and asking him if he has a moment to discuss something that's been troubling me. And so on.

I will do this. I feel very strongly that I must do this. And I know it's going to turn out better if for no other reason than I no longer keep the thoughts inside or in the realm of employee griping.